Why am I here?
What is the purpose, the goal ? Is it the connections with other people, with "things", adventurous experiences within nature and the world? Feeling the connection to the past and respecting the possibilities of the future?
Is it a respect for Him above? Preaching the Word and damning all who do not listen to hell? The world is large and very old, there are many ways to reach the same goal. Have some humility in the words you speak, and follow Him in your actions.
Is it Control? over others? over land? over what? We are born with no control, and die the same. When I was little I walked in between the tall stones thinking, What do we leave behind? That little dash representing our whole time doesn't seem like much.
If I had to pick a best week of the past quarter century of my life, it was interestingly when I HAD NOTHING. A week in the middle of nowhere, in a tepee with great friends, no money no jobs, no plan. What is to be learned from this?
"Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth." Thoreau